March 20, 2014
A lot of us sail through school, college, whatever, picking up grades, honours and badges by merely showing up. To people outside these systems, without these experiences, we’re often heralded as geniuses, or intimidatingly intelligent, or any other label allowing for systematic ordering. We measure others in order to understand ourselves.
Obviously this isn’t healthy but it’s damn difficult to overcome. If I had suggestions on how to break free of this mechanism, trust me, I’d give them. Sadly I don’t. What I can show you, however, is that this is a disease prevalent inside of everybody at some point in their lives. For the more sensitive among us, myself included, it’s often more frequent and reoccurring. Perhaps we look at others, throughout the day, and stand in admiration. Then, before we even know it, the gun has slowly turned on ourselves and our subsequent failure to match up. The onus, of course, is only on ourselves to relax this kind of pressure.
But we’re probably unlikely to do that for a while at least right?